back in the studio

I am slowly back in the studio again trying to figure out what is next. I am astonished at how slowly I have to move- both physically and mentally... this feels like it may be a long up hill battle... I have no interest in determining too quickly what the next solo or project will be. i will be spending 8 days in Joshua Tree national Park in 2 weeks
- maybe there I can focus and get a hold of something real or quit this art thing finally (unlikely- but it is where I am sitting a lot...)

maybe it is time for me to just be a teacher (everytime I say that it does not happen)